Friday, November 16, 2007

There's a new kid in town!


Kelore's "A Touch of Grace" a.k.a. Gracie





Wednesday, September 12, 2007

I'm afraid...

I don't know what to do about something that happened on the Labour Day long weekend and I just need somewhere to express it.

Preamble

My next door neighbour's family has experienced a run of bad luck. The main breadwinner was a colleague of mine here at the City. A really nice man. A couple of years ago he had a heart attack. He was ready to come back to work after recovering when they discovered his body was full of cancer. He passed away over a year and a half ago. It was so sad - he was a really nice man. He adored Honey - she used to go over and visit with him while I was at work, in the afternoons. He enjoyed her company.

So his wife was left picking up the pieces of their lives. They have two sons, both intellectually challenged. The older one is more functioning. I hate to say it but he has always given me the heebie-jeebies. He would stare at me, even go so far as to sit on his deck and watch me cut the grass. I'd see him peering in through my windows. And he seemed so full of anger at times. There were times I'd lock my doors, close my windows, turn off my lights and sit in the dark frightened by the vehemence of his anger.

The Fire

On the Friday night of the Labour Day weekend, I awoke to the sound of a ruckus outside. When I looked out my front window, I saw a crowd on the street - I thought it was a party. When I looked out the window over my kitchen sink, I saw flames in the living room of my neighbour's home. I calmly called 911 and was told they were on the way. I woke up the Boy, and Honey followed us outside.

I won't go into the details of what happened. There were Police, EMTs and eventually the Fire Department. The fire was out in relatively short time - thankfully my house was never in any danger. But it was scary. I pray I never come any closer than that to a house fire.

Arson

The son has now been charged and remanded for a psychiatric evaluation. And I am so sorry for my neighbour. But I'm scared for me and my family. What will the future bring? Will he come back once they replace the house. Will I ever feel as safe around him again? Will I ever be able to not worry about what he might do to his family.

Lord help us all. Please pray for resoultion for all of us, for the world to move forward and things to get better.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Can World's Strongest Dad, A Tribute

Imagine being this sort of parent. I feel very small and incredibly humble.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Training partners

I have often found amusing/annoying a little thing that BF says to me. When I lament hills or the wind on my cycling (or running) jaunts, he scolds me.

"The wind is your training partner!" he says.

And he is right. The wind works against us at times, but it also helps us out. It is a cruel and unusual wind indeed that doesn't help you for a portion of your ride. And the key is always to plan a ride based on where that wind will be coming from to maximize your energy and workout. And to a degree too, the wind is a mental challenge - it is harder on the old noggin to have the wind in your face - it just feels like you can't get anywhere.

This past Sunday the Dean of the Cathedral said something that really struck a chord. We've been talking about the Holy Spirit as we approach Pentecost and about the various forms the Holy Spirit takes in the Bible. A classic one is as a dove. There is also flame. And this week's discussion about what form taken was that of wind. At one point the Holy Spirit appeared as wind.

And it struck me that that makes it come full circle when I'm cycling. The Holy Spirit is with me. The Holy Spirit is my training partner. The Holy Spirit is with me as I work hard to improve my physical state of being. And by thinking of that challenge in a bit more of a spiritual sense, I can feel a sense of well-being that the Holy Spirit is helping me. And guiding me. And challenging me.

I guess I'd better not offer any more expletives when the wind is being particularly difficult on a ride or on a run!

Nice wind, helpful wind, nice helpful Holy Spirit. :)

Monday, May 14, 2007

Race photos

The starting line - waiting, waiting, waiting...



And we're off...see me smilling back at Sebastian?


I'm still smiling in the final loop...


After the finish.


Posing with my man and my dog.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Race Day!

So today was finally the day. I ran the 10 KM in the Fredericton Marathon.

53:26 (or somewhere thereabouts) - I have a bad memory for numbers.

It was a great race. I felt good running and probably could have done better but considering I was aiming for a sub-60 minute race, that's pretty f*cking amazing!

Now I am pooped. Took my Mum for Brunch at the Blue Canoe with Sebastian. I'm ready for a nap now!

Happy Mother's Day to all!

Monday, May 07, 2007

I'm falling...

I had a dumb accident on Saturday that has resulted in pain and suffering.

I have two little decks - to call them decks is doing them a huge service - they are really just steps to my door. On the back set I keep the barbecue.

I've noticed that this back deck is rotting a bit, one plank in particular was looking pretty dicey. I've been meaning to do something vague about it but haven't done anything.

Well the good news is I no longer have to ponder what to do about the plank - it's now gone.

The bad news is I fell through it Saturday afternoon. I'd been doing yard work etc and noticed I had forgotten to put the cover back on the BBQ the last time I used it. So I opened the backdoor and stepped out to cover it. I stepped squarely down on the plank and it gave way and I went straight down like a rock. I badly bruised and scraped (but no open cuts) the leg that went through and badly wrenched the leg that didn't.

I bruise like no tomorrow so it's going to be really attractive. I just hope I can still run the Marathon next weekend.

Wow


I received a letter in the mail on Friday telling me I was being awarded a great honour as a Scouting volunteer.


I've worked hard as a Cub Leader and Adult volunteer trainer over the past few years. I've been feeling a little burned out by the process lately and even questioning whether to stay giving so much at it.


This is a huge boost. I am touched and honoured.

Friday, May 04, 2007

A week of work, whining and wunning.

Crikey I feel like this has been a long week. Like mega-long. Like interminable.

Tuesday I presented to the Public Safety and Environment committee. It was a wellfield update. It went really well. Council likes me, the Mayor likes me. It's a great feeling to be doing your job well and to be appreciated for it.

Running is going well. I did a tempo run with Honey Tuesday that went well. Then last night I had a great run - I've really kicked up the pace. I think it is not unreasonable to plan for a sub 55 minute race. I was hoping for a sub-60. I am happy. And I plan to keep running and get my time down. Maybe sub-50 by the end of the summer.

We bought boy a Trek 7000 hybrid for his birthday. It will also be my commuter bike which is nice. It's a nice looking bike too.

Last night was an open house about the City's new proposed Water Treatment Plant. It went well - lots of people showed up.

And now it's Friday again. BF is coming over later. I am so ready for a quiet Friday night. After my speed work run though. I'm not looking forward to intervals. This weather SUCKS!

Monday, April 30, 2007

Oh my aching hams...

It's been a source of amusement to me for some time that BF has really tight hamstrings and I typically don't.

Or at least didn't.

I did a couple of runs this weekend. Saturday was my interval training - first kick at the can. I did 5.6 km with five 400 metre intervals at full out pace. I merely ran until I couldn't breathe anymore, jogged for two minutes and repeated for a total of five sets. I realized that I need to think about my form when I run fast. I tend to really increase my stride which isn't practical for long distances and it stretches previously ignored muscles. Like my hamstrings.

I realized this on Sunday when I went to do my 9 km run. For the first time my hamstrings were tight. But not as tight as they were by the end and by last evening, they were even tighter.

I am now suitably humbled.

Friday, April 27, 2007

A week of things

It was merely a typical week. A nice week though after a delightful weekend of passing time with BF. I think I like it best when we have a bunch of fun little things to do together and we hang out and have fun just being. It's so refreshing.

On the work side, I managed to overcome a situation with a difficult cow-orker who for some reason unknown to me decided to make my life as difficult as possible. I fixed their clock though - circumvented them and now get what I require when I require it instead of stressing over things. I wish I knew why people change or at least what happened to change what was once a good friendship. Oh well - my life is too damn busy to waste on petty people and too damn short to let myself get worked up over BS.

Tuesday I ran with our group. It was wicked windy, brutally so. And my running buddy was one of my wickedly fast cow-orkers who motivates me to run faster (which is good) but since I am a tad on the competitive side, it can result in doing too much. In any case it was a challenging run ("imagine yourself as an arrow splitting through the wind" - I imagined myself walking instead of running!) and wild running across the Westmorland St. Bridge - I learned the term "Four-laner" which means that when you spit it crosses all four lanes of traffic - it was "only" a three-laner Tuesday.

My calf was then bawling and really sore constantly. And continued to grumble loudly through Wednesday so I didn't run (I did take Honey for a walk up our wooded trail near the house). It griped when I did my standard loop yesterday but feels better this morning. I've been stretching frequently.

ASAP I will be doing some interval training. I've never done it - I think it will be challenging...

Boy comes back tonight and we are going with my Mum to Asia Beef Noodle for supper - yum. It's supposed to rain today but then showers over the weekend. I hope it doesn't rain too hard.

And then BF, Boy & I will watch a movie Saturday night. A Night at the Museum. I hope it is as funny as it could be.

TGIF!

Monday, April 23, 2007

Long run

I did a 12 km run yesterday. It was *long*. I did it in about 1:15 - it felt like forever at times.

I was stiff and sore after. Stretched quite a few times.

BF & I went to the staff family fun skate at the new arena complex. I am so not a skater and BF is a hockey player and has skated since he was five or so. We had fun but boy oh boy did my ankles hurt!

It is a really nice facility.

BF gave me a lovely massage last night and was very complimentary of my calf muscles (he is a total calf man).

He rode yesterday with OSB and had me in stitches describing the rider they call "Quadzilla" who has quads three times the size of BF's.

I hope to start biking soon but also need to concentrate on getting ready for my 10 km inthe Marathon in 3 weeks!

Friday, April 20, 2007

My route for the Fredericton Marathon 10 km

I can't get it to embed in my blog but here is a link.

Wow

I've been feeling sad & angry after what happened at Virginia Tech. Such a tragic loss.

And I'm pretty proud of our gun laws, as long as our Federal Government doesn't do something stupid to change them.

Don't get me wrong. I support hunters and people who use weapons legitimately but they are meant to kill and we need to do what we can to stop them from killing people.

And then I read this. And I figure I don't have to say anything more on the topic of gun control.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

More running blah blah

So to update on my running - last night I ran about 4.8 km in29:30. That includes three wicked uphill treks and one lovely long downhill stride.

Today I ran 3.6 km in 19 minutes, met a friend I hadn't seen in ages so we caught up. Then completed my run but my watch went wonky on me so I think the total run was 6.12 km in about 35 minutes.

It was warmer today but still really windy. It was a treat to get out when it wasn't freezing! I was over-dressed for a change too!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Lock up your daughters...

The boy decided he wanted a haircut.


Look what he went for, on his own. He sure looks handsome!

Wonderful birthdays


I meant to post about BF's birthday which was this past weekend. Last year he was flat on his back in agony so we didn't really celebrate. This year we had a nice dinner at my place and then I had set up with our friends JY & A that we would have a party there. I decorated and bought munchies & stuff. And a cake of course. We had a really nice time. Boy was with us too and even he enjoyed himself.

I had bought BF a rather expensive Christmas present and so had told him it was a combination Christmas/birthday gift. Of course he was holding me to that but equally of course I felt that I wanted to buy him something. So we compromised and shared the cost of a Discovery cycling jersey that he got for half price. And Honey bought him the matching socks. And we got him some Hershey's kisses. And some maple syrup.

I think he was really touched.

Sunday we went to his parent's place for a big supper. I was pooped after my 9 km run and BF was beat after a 60 km ride. It's still too darn cold for me to bike!

BF was heard to say he really had a nice birthday. It is truly heartwarming to contribute to such happiness in his life.

Time flies where you are working too hard!

For the first time in my life I am truly incredibly stupidly busy. I don't have time at work to respond to emails (what's with that?). I've let all all sorts of things slide. It is truly bizarre. And don't get me wrong - I like being busy but I like being a slug too! Oh well - the City's getting their money's worth these days!

And what about running you ask?

When we last saw our not-so-intrepid blogger, I was getting back up to speed or at least trying to get somewhere close. Good Friday, April 6, Honey & I ran to BF's. That worked out to be about 7.1 km and we did it in 42 minutes. I was quite pleased with that. I did another 7 km run that same Sunday, same basic time. And ran with the group that Tuesday. I ran again Thursday last week and then this past Sunday Honey & I did 9 km in about 54 minutes. I was really pleased with that!

Now the weather here has been horrible - snow, freezing rain, ice pellets, rain and really strong winds. So I didn't get out Tuesday with the group. I didn't go out last night because I was afraid of falling on the slippery roads. I did a run tonight - lots of hill work since I live on a brutal hill. I'll check the distance on the GIS at work tomorrow.

It's just too bad that work is interfering with my running! :)

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Running update

Well it's five weeks now until the Fredericton Marathon. I've been out running a grand total of five times.

The inaugural run (March 20) was fine until the day or two after! I was in a fair bit of pain, mainly in my quads. It was too much (6.2 km) too soon after a winter of nothing. Lesson learned.

My next attempt was early on March 24. I hadn't eaten breakfast and I was still pretty stiff. Honey & I went out and it was not so much a run as a plod. I think we went about 5 km but it wasn't running. Helped stretch out though.

My next group run (March 27) was better. I went a little fast to begin with and felt pretty good overall. Cut my time back a little. My calves were really wingey after that run.

I then had another run March 30 with a cow-orker. I was hungry so I ate an apple before we left. That was a mistake. But overall it was a good run - much faster than previous with a couple of walking breaks and we had cut a lot of time off. Still some small calf grumbles.

I missed this week's Tuesday run but went out by myself yesterday. It felt pretty darn good. I know I was faster and didn't need any breaks (want is different from need!)

I plan to get out at least a couple of times this long weekend. Today's weather sucks though - it's snowing! What's with that!!

Hopefully I can pull a decent time for the 10km on May 13.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Things to carry you through...

I finally got off my fat #ss and got out for some exercise today. I went running with a group here at the City who will be completing some version of the Fredericton Marathon this Mother's Day. I'm planning on running the 10 km.

I haven't done anything since last December. I'm a slug and have gained about ten pounds over the winter.

But I bought myself the very cool sushi hat you see above and a new shirt for running and ran 6.2 km today.

I hurt.

I will hurt more later.

I will hurt even more tomorrow.

But I am back on the road to fitness!

Yay.

Monday, March 19, 2007

Life stuff

It's been ages since I posted. I've been really struggling with life things. Much pain from neck & shoulder crap. I am mostly on the mend but still struggling.

Problems in the Boy's life are also of great concern. I am quite worried for him.

And BF has been sick and grumpy for what seems like forever but he is coming out of it too. It's been tough to have this juxtaposition of gloom.

I just want days of sunshine and warmth and to get out on my bike and start running again. I guess I just want my life back.

If anyone sees it, please tuck into into and envelope and send it along.

Monday, March 05, 2007

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Monday, February 26, 2007

Who let the dog out?



Honey was sleeping on the Boy's bed at the Hilton Hotel this weekend. (we were in Saint John for a curling bonspiel) So the Boy figured it was only appropriate that he sleep in her kennel - she wasn't so sure. :)
Boy says the kennel is actually roomier and more comfy than he thought.

How I feel at work some days...

Honey ended up coming to work with me on Friday. She was a little angel - she was so quiet no one really knew she was here.

But I think she thought my work is pretty boring...


Friday, February 23, 2007

My gym membership


My mother gave me $$ for Christmas to renew my gym membership. I looked back over what was a highly successful year in terms of physical fitness. But I really didn't get to the gym often enough to make a $500 membership worthwhile - over $10 a visit fer crissakes!

So I asked and got permission to use the money towards a new digital camera and bought a Kodak Easyshare Z710. It's sweet.


Honey looked less than impressed.


The Boy thinks it is cool. Check out the photo. Taken in the dark in his room - no red eye! He's holding his eyes open because the previous photos were kind of squinty. :)

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Valentine's Day :)

Well the weather outside was frightful but my evening was quite delightful.

BF didn't disappoint. A dozen long-stem white roses, a sweet little bear with a pink bow, locks for my Yakima rack & bike mount, a card for me, a card for Honey, gifts(!) for Honey, supper prepared, dishes washed. It was sublime.

We probably should have then gone outside and shovelled all the freaking snow but instead we turned our energies to more romantic pursuits. I went to bed in a fuzzy blur of bliss. BF got to drive home in his hot extended-cab plow truck and go to work.

I am well kept.

Monday, February 12, 2007

Life's embarrassing moments

Oh yeah - I am so cool in my City vehicle...until one of life's embarrassing moments strikes.

This morning around ten to nine I was driving down Queen Street, one of our main downtown thoroughfares when buddy in the next lane starts drifting over. There was a truck in an alley that looked sort of like he was backing into the street so I think buddy decided to come over into my lane. Me in my GM Sierra Cargo Van (at least that's what I think it is)

So I toot the horn, no response. Hit the horn again in an attempt to not be involved in an accident. Horn deploys all right - it sticks on! And it is *really* loud.

Crikey!!

I quickly pulled over, turned off the beast (feeble hope this would kill the horn) and then popped the hood(thus horn is now even louder with hood open). I'm a girl in panic mode - not thinking clearly about what to do.

Called dispatch. They tried the shop - no reply!

Dispatched mentioned something about fuse. I said I didn't know where they are (remember now there is a LOUD chorus of horn impeding my judgement)

But I drew a deep cleansing breath and located the fuse panel and looked at the chart. And then I tried to remove the one for the horn. I couldn't lift it! More mild panic. Eventually I managed to pry the little bastard out of its slot - blessed silence.

Took the now aptly named "Christine" the psycho van over to the shop for repair. They laughed at me - imagine that. :)

Nice start to the week eh?

And ohmigawd - I like broke my nail! I need time off for a workplace injury...

Monday, February 05, 2007

How to irritate your boyfriend...

Or ensure you will never be invited to another Superbowl party. :)

Our good friends J & A came over last night with Vincey to eat, drink & be merry while watching the Superbowl. We had a ball - great food, great company. I howled with laughter and laughed until tears streamed down my face. The boy was with us too and he was hilarious playing that plastic hockey horn. I really enjoyed myself.

A & I discovered how to make BF want to eject us from the game. You see the quarterback for the team we were cheering for is Payton Manning. And he has P.Manning on the back of his jersey.





Well A & I both agreed that it was too much like Preston Manning and so we started to call him Preston.







BF was not amused.




Well we thought it was funny! :)

Friday, February 02, 2007

Woodchuck Day

Hey - tell me why isn't is woodchuck day anyway?

From "This Day in History on history.com"

February 2: General Interest

1887 : First Groundhog Day

On this day in 1887, Groundhog Day, featuring a rodent meteorologist,is celebrated for the first time at Gobbler's Knob in Punxsutawney,Pennsylvania. According to tradition, if a groundhog comes out of its hole on this day and sees its shadow, there will be six more weeks of winter weather; no shadow means an early spring.

Groundhog Day has its roots in the ancient Christian tradition ofCandlemas Day, when clergy would bless and distribute candles needed for winter. The candles represented how long and cold the winter would be. Germans expanded on this concept by selecting an animal--thehedgehog--as a means of predicting weather.

Once they came to America,German settlers in Pennsylvania continued the tradition, although theyswitched from hedgehogs to groundhogs, which were plentiful in theKeystone State.

Groundhogs, also called woodchucks and whose scientific name isMarmota monax, typically weigh 12 to 15 pounds and live six to eightyears. They eat vegetables and fruits, whistle when they're frightened or looking for a mate and can climb trees (!!) and swim.

They go into hibernation in the late fall; during this time, their body temperatures drop significantly, their heartbeats slow from 80 to five beats per minute and they can lose 30 percent of their body fat. InFebruary, male groundhogs emerge from their burrows to look for a mate(not to predict the weather) before going underground again. They come out of hibernation for good in March.

In 1887, a newspaper editor belonging to a group of groundhog hunters from Punxsutawney called the Punxsutawney Groundhog Club declared thatPhil, the Punxsutawney groundhog, was America's only true weather-forecasting groundhog. The line of groundhogs known as Phil might be America's most famous groundhogs, but other towns across North America now have their own weather-predicting rodents, fromBirmingham Bill to Staten Island Chuck to Shubenacadie Sam in Canada.

In 1993, the movie Groundhog Day starring Bill Murray popularized the usage of "groundhog day" to mean something that is repeated over and over. Today, tens of thousands of people converge on Gobbler's Knob inPunxsutawney each February 2 to witness Phil's prediction. ThePunxsutawney Groundhog Club hosts a three-day celebration featuring entertainment and activities.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

too busy but not enough of the right sorts of things

You know how that is? You find your schedule full and you don't seem to have any time to do anything but somehow you aren't doing the sorts of things you want to be doing. It's sort of tough for me as an "every other week single parent". But some of the boy's activities carry over week to week regardless. And my ex although pretty decent as exes go, isn't always as supportive of certain things as he might be (he probably says the same about me though...)

So our crazy schedule runs something like this:

Monday - Cubs (I'm a Leader)
Tuesday - Scouts (Boy) and sometimes I have to go to a meeting as a parent
Wednesday - Boy has curling after school. The evening is free.
Thursday - choir Boy after school, me from 7:30 to 9:30
Friday - recovery
Saturday - scurry about getting stuff done
Sunday - church AM, Curling PM

Now this week I've added a UNB/STU game Wednesday evening with BF which is wonderful. Tonight I have a meeting at the church for Boy's Canada Jamboree this summer for Scouts. Thursday I'm going to supper with my dear friend who is struggling with being unemployed. Friday through the weekend is the Simms Home Hardware 17 & Under Curling bonspiel for the boy but I also have Cub Camp. I can't be in both places so I will miss his bonspiel and unfortunately he also misses Scout camp.

Did I mention Boy also has school choir and Senior Band? (7:30 AM practices Wednesday!)

Sunday is the Superbowl and I am hoping that BF will come over for supper (or better yet to *make* supper) and we can watch together. I'm cheering for the Colts. I have no real reason why other than it seemed like just about every NFL game I watched this past season they were in for some reason. I like their coach.

Looks like next weekend though there will be a spinning ladies spa overnighter in Mactaquac. I can sure live with that.

Calgon take me away.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

A curious thing

A strange thing happened today. I realized I missed my dad.

Now my father passed away 14 years ago. We had a strained relationship that was greatly improved by the approximately 870 km that separated us. We could survive a long-weekend together, maybe. Christmas holidays were brutal. Summers - excruciating.

Daddy was an alcoholic. Clinically depressed. Legally blind. Had angina and related blood/heart stuff. Fibromyalgia. He ruined *every* Christmas except his last.

He was a grumpy old bastard but he had his moments. He was really smart. Taught geology at McGill. His job resulted in my being born in Rouyn-Noranda in Abitibi in Northern Quebec and spending the first ten years of my life summering up there.

He wasn't so good at turning off the professorial tap. He could sit at the table, drinking warm beer and chain smoking, and lecture you on whatever until the cows came home. He held grudges. Forever. He blamed everything bad on someone - we all learned to try to ensure nothing would stick to us. I'm a bit of a flincher as a result - I hate to be seen as "responsible" for something negative and can be overly defensive as a result.

So why did I miss him?

Because he was wise and gave good guidance most of the time. Because he was my daddy and my son will never know him.

Because a wonderful elderly man came in for some advice today and I was sorry that my dad will never have the opportunity to sit across a table from me while I explain what it is I do.

Hi Daddy - I felt your presence today & I wanted to acknowledge it.

Monday, January 22, 2007

Ahhhh the warmth of worm spit...

Last fall I participated in the Tour de Grand Lake, a 138 km road bike ride for breast cancer support. It was a tough ride but loads of fun. And fun prizes for everyone.

One of my prizes was a pair of pale purple silk long underwear that I have been wearing for a couple of weeks now what with winter finally arriving. They are awesome!!

And the Boy informed me with great glee last night that silk is in fact worm spit. And we then tried to convince BF that my longjohns were obviously made with purple worm spit as a result of the worms being fed grape kool-aid that made the silk threads purple. BF was having none of it unfortunately. It was pretty funny though.

I'd love to get a spare pair.

Friday, January 19, 2007

Let it Snow...

Wowsers - a predicted storm with snow then rain then snow. Should be messy later.

Boy is off to curl in a funspiel in St. Stephen tomorrow. I'll be sitting home alone with the dog while BF shovels & plows. He got my pipes defrosted thankfully.

Not much else going on. January blahs still threaten to take hold. Blech.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

oh fer crissakes

My flipping pipes are frozen. Thankfully not the main pipe leading into the house but the cold water supply pipe to the bathroom sink, the toilet and the kitchen. I have hot water everywhere and cold water to the tub.

Bloody hell.

Hopefully the defrost will be a quick fix and then I can simply put some heat tape where needed and insulate the area under my stupid mini home a little better.

I so did not need that this week.

And my head is still aching from Sunday's fall. The next time I faint I'm going to try to not "break my crown". The first time I fainted two years ago I split my lip open and had to have it glued back together but that didn't hurt for days after.

Sigh.

And now I'm just waiting for the final shoe to drop since "jamais deux sans trois"...

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Bloody h*ll

Okay so I know this isn't as bad as some of our more Northern regions of Canada but it's Freaking cold today. -33 C windchills are just wrong. Why wasn't I born somewhere more southerly?

In other news, I went to the doctor and there is nothing wrong with me. Yeah I've put on a few pounds since last fall but my BP was good and my heart sounds fine. Isolated incident I guess.

So since there is nothing wrong with me there's no hope for "fixing" me.

Carry on.

Monday, January 15, 2007

No I'm not...

I repeat NOT...pregnant.

Some might think that because I fainted I might be pregnant.

I'm not. Confirmed as my beloved period arrived on time (every time) today.

I take a pretty little pill to ensure I don't get pregnant and to prevent me from monthly agony and strong desires to rip the head off anyone XY who might be handy. I knew I wasn't pregnant.

Thank you Ortho-McNeil Pharmaceutical.

The mother of all shiners

Wowsers. I guess I sort of threw off my mantle of gloom this weekend and exchanged it for a helmet of pain.

Friday night was lovely. BF & I went to Asia Beef Noodle for bathtubs of soup (really big bowls) and then we went back to my place and watched Talladega Nights (I wanted some silliness).

Saturday was a lazy sort of day although my friend A & I took Honey and her BF Vincey to the woodlot for a nice romp. It was a lovely day until we turned the last corner and had a nasty wind in our faces the whole rest of the way to the car. I got home, made a Prime Rib roast and accoutrements for supper with BF. Then back to A's place where I was meeting her & her BF to go to UNB's hockey game. She had gotten stranded in Pizza notso-Delight waiting in pizza hell so was late but her BF poured me a glass of red wine while we waited. We had another glass while they ate. And by then the girls had decided we would much rather stay at her place and gossip and sip red wine. So her BF left. I called my BF, told him what we had done and asked if he would drive me home later. He agreed.

We split the first bottle less one glass that her BF had. We then had one glass each from the second bottle. I know I didn't have a whole bottle's worth over 6 hours so although I was chatty and silly I wasn't wasted. BF drove me home around 12:30.

At 6:00 AM Sunday morning I rose to have a pee. I felt a little sickish but put that on the red wine and corn chips I ate, both of which can give me indigestion. When I rose from the throne I felt quite dizzy so I sat again. When I tried once more to rise, I felt very dizzy so I sat on the floor this time; I think I even lay down for a moment to collect myself. When I then told myself all I really wanted was to go back to my warm bed, I remember standing up but that's it. The next thing I remember was hearing BF asking if I was okay and then being helped back to bed. He had been woken by a rather large thump (me) and thought it was Honey knocking something over but when he reached over to my side of the bed he realized I was gone and went to check. Found me on bathroom floor.

I could feel a sore spot on my forehead above my right eye and figured I was going to have a shiner. Oh boy was I ever right. I spent all day yesterday sleeping on the couch (I'm sure I had a concussion) and this morning I woke up with garish purple eyeshadow on that eye. My head still really hurts. And I have no idea why I fainted.

So it's off to the doctor Wednesday (unless I can get in this afternoon) to see what's happening with this crazy body of mine.

Thankfully life is never dull.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Another positive step forward

I'm gradually throwing off these pesky mid-winter blues, one step at a time. Last night was a bit hectic and almost threw me off. We (Me, BF, boy and boy's friend) went to the UNB-UdeM hockey game. Too rushed for a decent supper after boy's curling but it was a fabulous game, really exciting. Unfortunately UNB lost 11 seconds into overtime but it was good hockey.

Today I had one of those "Oh yeah this is why women need girlfriends" lunches. I met my friend S after a way-too-long hiatus. We used to be really lucky because she was my French instructor so we got to see each other weekly without needing to "find" time. She's a wonderful person, a good friend and we have way fun together.

We had lunch at the Crowne Plaza. Their salad buffet was really tasty - quite a pleasure. So good in fact that I didn't feel a need to supplement with the hot buffet. I feel mildly sanctimonious for being so good and only eating healthy food. I'm paying a certain price however for eating too many red onion bits.

We girls need girlfriends, maybe even more than we "need" boyfriends. Girlfriends provide love and warmth and the good ones provide unconditional support through whatever life throws at you. It's so nice to share stories from in the trenches with people who don't judge you or take stuff the wrong way.

And the cool thing about girlfriends is that you can always add another one and the existing ones don't get all jealous. They are like pearls in your own strand of life - valuable and precious and intended to be held warm and close to your heart.

Thanks S for reminding me what true friendship is about. :)

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Retail Therapy

After yesterday's attack of the blahs, I was drawn to Radical Edge. They are having a sale. I feel better now.

The first shirt I got is sort of like the one below but not exactly. The colour is the same.



I also got this exact shirt.

I'm a girly girl

Your Brain is 87% Female, 13% Male
You have the brain of a girly girlWhich isn't a bad thing at allYou're emphathic, caring, and in tune with emotions.You're a good friend and give great advice.

Blues Update

I actually took the time to locate my unpaid bills last night and I paid them.

oh i feel so much better...

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

January Blues

I just can't seem to shake these January Blues...

Blah - it sounds like a corny song doesn't it? But I just feel like a lump.

I don't want to do anything or go anywhere. I feel my body changing shape and growing like some fungal colony. My muscle tone I'm sure is completely shot. I'm still struggling with this cough too and I don't want to take the risk of some secondary infection so I don't want to go to the gym.

I don't want to clean my house. I don't want to do any paperwork or find bills so I can pay them. I don't want to cook interesting meals.

I don't want to go to work. I don't want to do anything or go anywhere. I want to lie on my couch, watch bad television, eat tasty food prepared & served by someone else and wait until warmer weather with longer daylight hours arrives and I can find my usual chipper, happy self again.

It's either that or go on an impulsive spending splurge. I think I'd better stick to Frenchy's though. I have festive holiday bills to think about.

Whine whine whine.

Friday, January 05, 2007

A funny thing happened on the way to work...




Here are some shots taken out my way this morning...I was right at the intersection where the bus was - at that point there was also a garbage truck and another large vehicle in the same ditch. Apparently the other was a tow truck and there was also a Police Car.
We had two of our City sand trucks go off the road too.
I'm amazed I made it in one piece! And I know it was a bit foolish but by the time I was out of my neighbourhood, I was at the point of no return - I couldn't have gotten home and had nowhere else to go that wasn't work!
Man I *need* a massage after all the stress and tense muscles!

Black ice

I had the most harrowing drive of my career today. Picture driving on a skating rink surface. Fun if you are driving a Zamboni. Not fun in a Nissan Sentra.

And once I managed to get down the hill in my neighbourhood using a route with switchbacks, I was at the point of no return. I wasn't going to get home and I was freaked out by the sheer mass of accidents and what I faced to get to work. A huge accident involving a City Bus, garbage truck, tow truck and taxi (I gather) was what pushed me over the edge. I was overwhelmed with the realization that I was in a dangerous situation.

But I made it to work, skated along the sidewalks to get to City Hall.

Black ice sucks.

Thursday, January 04, 2007

This is pretty funny

I presume this is true and even if it isn't, it is a cunning bit of humour.

The top 10 unintentionally worst company URLs

From: http://independentsources.com/2006/07/12/worst-company-urls/

Attn: EntrepreneursEveryone knows that if you are going to operate a business in today’s world you need a domain name. It is advisable to look at the domain name selected as other see it and not just as you think it looks. Failure to do this may result in situations such as the following (legitimate) companies who deal in everyday humdrum products and services but clearly didn’t give their domain names enough consideration:

1. A site called ‘Who Represents‘ where you can find the name of the agent that represents a celebrity. Their domain name… wait for it… iswww.whorepresents.com

2. Experts Exchange, a knowledge base where programmers can exchange advice and views atwww.expertsexchange.com

3. Looking for a pen? Look no further than Pen Island atwww.penisland.net

4. Need a therapist? Try Therapist Finder atwww.therapistfinder.com

5. Then of course, there’s the Italian Power Generator company…www.powergenitalia.com

6. And now, we have the Mole Station Native Nursery, based in New South Wales:www.molestationnursery.com

7. If you’re looking for computer software, there’s alwayswww.ipanywhere.com

8. Welcome to the First Cumming Methodist Church. Their website iswww.cummingfirst.com

9. Then, of course, there’s these brainless art designers, and their whacky website:www.speedofart.com

10. Want to holiday in Lake Tahoe? Try their brochure website athttp://www.gotahoe.com/

No sardines for lunch today...

Leftover gluten-free, dairy-free pizza instead.

Mmmmm pizza.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

It's a start...

For lunch today I ate some of these. Described as "BRUNSWICK Seafood Snacks - delicious and nutritious. Boneless herring fillets in an exciting and contemporary range of great sauces."

Today herring fillets. Tomorrow maybe a sardine.

They were reasonably tasty.

I still think I should feed the sardines to Honey...

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

WTF?

Man I just had one of those "What the Fuck?" moments.

The summer before last (2005), in my pre-BF days, I was walking Honey along the trail one fine August late afternoon. I met a guy on his MTB and we chatted for a while. He was nice enough, francophone and we seemed to hit it off. We ended up going for drinks at the Delta and I thought we had a good time. But I never heard from him again, which was also fine.

I had by that point established myself as very happily single. I'd been severely burned by a major assh*le the previous January and was still in recovery. And after having a delightful diversion with a hot younger man as a form of recovery in the first few months of that year, I was now a new woman. Happy, single and ready to just be my new self.

And then I met BF. We met at HJB and then at a volunteer appreciation party where we really connected. And the rest is history. He has improved my life immensely and I am a much better person for knowing him.

So this French guy (who I am embarrassed to say I can't even remember his name!!!) contacted me by email a year ago at Christmastime after seeing me with a girlfriend at a bar. And I told him that I had a new love interest at that point and we were going to Montreal over the holidays and that life was good. So he wished me well and that was that.

Except he showed up at my office today! WTF?

Wanted to know if I was still in love (YES!). Still living in the same place? Turns out he is thinking of moving into my neighbourhood (WTF?) Am I living with my BF? He appears happy to hear I am not living with BF (WTF?)

Strange strange strange.

Merry New Year!

I was experiencing technical difficulties blogging from home so I simply gave up and let it slide.

Now I'm back at work again after a lovely ten day hiatus. I needed the break and now it is good to be back at work. I'm still coughing a bit but I think I am very lucky that I had time off - I suspect I would have ended up with bronchitis had I been working. I've felt that deep chest coughing effect a few times since contracting this dread illness.

And now we are into 2007. I feel so lucky, I am so blessed.

I have a wonderful boyfriend. He is caring and thoughtful. And I have learned from previous mistakes with other less wonderful people so I can stop *myself* from making errors in judgement. It's so neat to see myself having changed my approach on certain things and how much happier I am as a result. BF doesn't "make" me happy; I am happier with who *I* am when I'm with him.

I have a great kid. He is bright and cheerful and cooperative. We get along well although we are alike in many ways so I think I may have to pay attention to that as he gets older. I wouldn't want to have him experience strife because of being too much like me in the same ways my mother & I find ourselves frequently at odds. He is doing so well in school and enjoys his extra-curricular stuff too. It is gratifying to be a parent.

I have a great job. I work for a great organization. I like my work and the opportunities to interact with the public. I appreciate my opportunities here as I "mature" in my career too. I am very lucky.

I have a super dog. She is a real ray of sunshine in my life. I can't imagine life without her. And although I know it is a bit crazy to get another dog, I battle my irrational fear of losing her after having lost my brother all those years ago in that terrible accident. It's sort of like the old "the heir and the spare" thing. Sometimes I worry about what would happen if I lost Sebastian but I can't really do anything about that. So in my own silly little way I guess I want two dogs so I won't have to worry about being dog-less.

I have my own home that the bank lets me live in as long as I make payments to them. I have my own car that another bank lets me drive as long as I make payments to *them*. I have plenty of food, clothing and little luxuries.

So what will 2007 bring? Well I hope to achieve last year's 10 km race objective in running. I let that slide. I'd like to put 3000 km on my road bike this year and accomplish a 100 mile century. I'd like to visit family in Quebec and Vermont this summer. I'd like to get to the gym 3 times a week. I'd like to be more positive and less critical.

And I'd like to have more time to do more things with more friends.